Life in LADA land

Living Philippians 1:6 with type 1.5 diabetes

Sunday ramblings

on April 6, 2014

This is just going to be a scattered collection of thoughts from the past couple of weeks.  None of them is sufficient for an entire blog, and they are not connected. So, here goes.

  • During the Lord’s Supper this morning, when our Pastor was talking about the cup as a sign of the blood shed for our sins, I realized that every day, I poke my finger and test my blood sugar about 6-8 times.  I can use those moments not just to figure out if I am in range or not, but as a reminder of that Amazing Love that led Him to go to the Cross for us. It might also help me with the emotional roller coaster that often goes along with those numbers, judging myself if they are low or high, or second guessing why the number is what it is.  I am sure that God is the ONLY One who can help me deal with this.
  • I’m reading Kerri Sparling’s book Balancing Diabetes.  It is even more helpful than her blog (which is saying a lot, since I find so much encouragement and help from the blog).   My favorite paragraph so far: “….I have the best diabetes management moments when I feel both emotionally and physically equipped to do what needs to be done. If my head is in a good place, I’m more apt to check my blood sugar and react to those numbers in a healthy way. It wasn’t until I had access to other people living with diabetes, by connecting through the Internet and by way of diabetes conferences, that I was  able to peel off some of the adjectives I had previously stuck to my blood sugar results and to see them simply as what they are – data points, not measures of my self-worth.” This is so true.  I need people around me to remind me that a blood sugar of 55 or 355 is not a measure of success of failure, but of blood sugar and nothing else. I can’t wait to read the next chapter.
  • The other thing I love about this book is that in an earlier chapter, Kerri interviews people who had been diagnosed with T1D as a child, and those who, like me, were diagnosed as adults.  I appreciate the confirmation that taking on this new responsibility of managing diabetes is daunting to those of us who remember life before T1D.  I can’t tell you how often I have thought how nice it would be to turn back the clock and go back to life without diabetes.  It’s nice to know I’m not alone in this.
  • The longer I go without swimming in the morning, the harder it is for me to keep my blood glucose in range.  This is great motivation to get myself out of bed at 6:30 am.
  • Emotions definitely have a physiological effect.  My blood sugar tends to go up with strong emotions, whether it’s sadness, happiness or worry.  It’s a drag, I must say.  That’s all I can say. I can’t find a good lesson for this one.
  • I have had a few amazing God moments lately, when circumstances worked out in ways that only God could have orchestrated.  I really love this.
  • Being disciplined is hard work and exhausting.  And I can’t keep it up indefinitely, unfortunately, as I am learning.

OK, that’s it for now.  The ups and downs of my life continue and diabetes seems to contribute more than I would like to these ups and downs.  But I am determined, and know that I have the power I need in Christ, not to let it overcome me.

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